Its truth,accept it!

Right now just from chatting with some friends of mine from Kitwe my former home,just realised how much i missed them after not being in touch for some time
Well today also marks 6 days till i depart my home country for Argentina,its remarkable at the same time saddening,exciting.all sorts of emotions are creeping through me and i dont blame me for that,its normal
My heart is filled with so much gratitude and appreciation for the Lords blessings like family and friends

Called my friend Ryan Kaseka to find out how he's doing and am glad that he is fine,then called his brother Russel,he is fine but really tired and stressed out,poor young man,called Kelly too and he is doing fine as well,am glad that all my friends are fine

In these conversations,Kelly and Russel brought out something that has got me thinking really,i told Kelly about whats been going on with me,basically my challenges with the male folk and their ability to note and say things that are not a surprise to me but are humbling but at the same time driving me nuts

Kelly"perhaps its because of what they see in you thats why they are treating you that way"to be honest i have heard that before but it just humbles me all the time i  hear it over and over again,its an honour to be the light of Christ,it is,and this light comes with its own conditions that take some getting used to and only Christ teaches us how well to deal and handle His light,

Russel also mentioned something too,except i didnt tell him anything about what i am going through,i just mentioned to him how much i am in need of growth in every aspect of my life,and when he noticed me saying that more than once he asked"what exactly do you mean when you say you have to grow?"then i broke it down for him i said in every way like physically,spiritually,emotionally,and i said i have to mature,i noticed the gigle he gave right after i said mature......so then i stopped to hear what the giggle was all about,and he said"why are you saying mature when you are already mature?"and i was like........."what?"i didnt have a response but instead i went into some 5 second meditation if ever that exists.

My friend Russel has a funny sense of humor that i really praise God for cause i know that he is one of the people that can cheer me up with a grande laugh,in our dialogue over the phone he said something like"imwe tamwa ka bwele,tali mwa liku temwa?and so i said "ehe" but boi home is home,and then he went like"imwe you'll come back with a dude from that side"i giggled,and he continued"imwe you have high standards"in shock i said "what"he continued"your standards are high"and so i asked him"what makes you say that i didnt say that?"and he continued"you dont need to say it,we can see it,its seen"i was in shock at that moment honestly but the dialogue had to go on.

for this particular post i was had to outline this one thing that my friend Russel brought out without realiseing how much it has got me thinking,He was right when he said"You dont need to say it,its already seen"
thats the truth because that what Christ does to us when we surrender our lives to Him wholly
I must not therefore be surprised when many guys wish for me to be their help meet,its inevitable

"A city that is set on a hill can not be hid"indeed light is very visible so visible that all see it wherever it goes,all this just come to show me in humility the great and wonderful works that God is doing in and through me.For a long time i have been praying for a concrete and solid relationship with my Savior Jesus and He has and still is answering me,what can i boast in apart from the cross?indeed i boast in the cross and the cross alone.

Thanks You oh Jesus for the good works that You are doing and still continue to do through and in me.
Please teach me how to handle this light for i know not how to handle it Oh Lord,
Thanks for Your time and answer in Jesus's awesome name i pray!